now this is a direct answer by to a previous post of mine:
do you know about them? do you hear them whispering? if you don't know, you will think they are your own thoughts. what do they say to you?
fool. blind. clumsy. you grope forward in the dark alone and no one is going to help you. you have to do it alone. you won't be able to do it alone. are you even going forward at all? which way is up? no doubt you are confused anyway.
ugly. shameful. fleshly. weak. your body will be the death of you forever. why don't women like you? she won't like you either. you won't even be equal, and you are too ashamed to meet their eyes. they will only see you with pity. you are too proud to accept that, and too afraid that you will one day be so low that even pity will be enough.
carnal. lustful. you hate your body yet you still give in to its demands. your simple desires corrupt your heart. you can't be pure on the inside. you're afraid that she will turn and see the lust in your gaze and despise you.
selfish. you are only thinking of yourself. you love your own self? why anyway? proud. what do you have to be proud of? are you so wise and insightful? are you so good? are you so rich? where is your talent, that people praise you? all your fear is for yourself only.
faceless. mute. it doesn't matter. you are invisible, except for when you do wrong. you're nothing but a carpet that people ignore until it gets dirty. no one is watching. no one is listening. your life has come this far without companions or change, why should it be different now. things will go back to normal. you will disappear without children, face, or memory. you know this. you know the faceless mask you wear, and the gloves with which you handle the world.
solitary. watch the world from arm's length. speak through a computer screen. see what you will never experience in the movies.
is this what they are saying to you? do you see the adversary weaving his snares? do you hear the slanderers whispering? if you don't see them, all you will hear is your own voice echoing in your head with doubts and bitter feelings. lies.
