even in the last hour

Spectral messenger, perpetual guest, last visitor...
you, the invasor of the dreams of everyone,
yet... not mines...
ruler of fears, challenge of rich and mightly ones
why are you doing this to me?
I'm bored here... where's your mercy?
am I so abject, even for you?
you, the one with neither favored ones nor hated ones.
you, the one who forget no one

Here I am, finished but not ended
just grasping my own ever-pesent and undying rejection
Here I am, confused and waiting
tired of thinking, tired of waiting.
My rest should have come long ago
but when and where I was destined for?
I don't know...
I'm tired of waiting, I'm bored here...

Repulsion...
what everyone around have always showed to me;
Abandonment...
that what you are doing to me now,
Oblivion...
my only choice?
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Edited By Rose Lachenhild