"What are you looking at?"
Dinemm asked the figure semi-hidden in the curtains.It took five seconds for Jonas to recover from the shock of hearing his father just a few steps behind him. He hadn't heard the shorter man approach over the soft carpets, lost as he was in his own thoughts.
"No.. nothing father... Sir, I..."
He tried to form an answer through the whirl of his scattered thoughts with his eyes turned the floor; away from the sight in the courtyard below the window.
"Are you contemplating the results of what you were waiting for for so long?"
interupted Dinemm. His rage-filled eyes sought for his elusive son's eyes.
"Are you not going to ask me for forgiveness? You have destroyed my family! You were entrusted with the care of all of us after... you... you only had to protect my two children!, only that! I never asked you for more and what have I found here today!?! My son is dead!"
The eldest son kept his face turned down, his throat tight with anger. Dinemm continued:
"My sweet Rucca... you destroyed her by killing her own brother, what a disaster you have brought on all us! Now I will have to send her away... forever, safe from you and your... jealousy... I hope you are happy now."
Jona's head snapped up.
"Happy!?!"
He refuted his father for the first time in his life.
"Why should I be happy?!? You have only cared for only one person as long as I can remember, yourself! You think that you understand Rucca now, but that is not true, we... my brothers were something less than trophies for you, while I... Did you think Rucca, and... Lucca, as your only children? Am I no one for you, am I not your son?, Or am I just a... what? A full time body guard?"Dinemm turned his back to his son. He teeth ground together as he fought for control of his temper. Jonas watched his father's taut shoulders.
"The truth hurts" - he thought to himself - "but you don't really care do you? Well, you still don't what would really hurt you. Your ignorance, my pain and my triumph."
"That has nothing to do with it now. The inspector Chronee will come soon, so, I hope for Rucca's sake and for your own's sake that you remember what you must say to him. It must be convincent to tell that all was an..."
"An accident! I know, you don't have to remind me of what to say. I was there, you were not."
interupted Jonas
"... I'll be at the hall then"
muttered Dinemm, while some words seemed to be restrained in his mouth. After a couple of uncomfortable seconds he left the room, closing the heavy doors. Jonas found himself alone in the room thinking about all the events that took place that same morning; the old mansion of his father felt more stifling than ever. He gazed at his hands, and at the same time looked through the window at the fragile and cold figure of his sister Rucca, now without the eternal company of her twin brother, while she climbed into the car that would take her to an uncertain future in another country. He realized that they hadn't said a proper goodbye to each other, however a little outline of smile seems to show in her face.
"Odd, now that you are alone... you look so... happy, so free. Now I understand why you did that. Farewell little sister,"
He recalled his father's words,
"now I know what I was looking at through the window. It was not my reflection after all...and not my failure"An old, serene female voice called his name through the door, interrupting his thoughts and telling him that his father and the inspector Chronee required his immediate presence in the main hall. Jonas calmly put on his usual jacket and took a last look around the room. His eyes were drawn to the family portrait over the main desk, and he noted how similar his brother Lucca was to their father; with the same cold, rejecting look in their eyes
"What a coward am I" - whispered Jonas,
"I hated you so much brother, almost as much as Rucca did, though... she never told you that. She did what I couldn't, with her own hands, now its my turn to prove my worth here, I guess... that our father won't be disappointed after all in I am going to say. He is hoping I will burn for this. Well, I can grant his wish, but not for him. This will be my one last act of protection for you, Rucca. None of this was your fault anyway. Goodbye"
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"No.. nothing father... Sir, I..."
He tried to form an answer through the whirl of his scattered thoughts with his eyes turned the floor; away from the sight in the courtyard below the window.
"Are you contemplating the results of what you were waiting for for so long?"
interupted Dinemm. His rage-filled eyes sought for his elusive son's eyes.
"Are you not going to ask me for forgiveness? You have destroyed my family! You were entrusted with the care of all of us after... you... you only had to protect my two children!, only that! I never asked you for more and what have I found here today!?! My son is dead!"
The eldest son kept his face turned down, his throat tight with anger. Dinemm continued:
"My sweet Rucca... you destroyed her by killing her own brother, what a disaster you have brought on all us! Now I will have to send her away... forever, safe from you and your... jealousy... I hope you are happy now."
Jona's head snapped up.
"Happy!?!"
He refuted his father for the first time in his life.
"Why should I be happy?!? You have only cared for only one person as long as I can remember, yourself! You think that you understand Rucca now, but that is not true, we... my brothers were something less than trophies for you, while I... Did you think Rucca, and... Lucca, as your only children? Am I no one for you, am I not your son?, Or am I just a... what? A full time body guard?"Dinemm turned his back to his son. He teeth ground together as he fought for control of his temper. Jonas watched his father's taut shoulders.
"The truth hurts" - he thought to himself - "but you don't really care do you? Well, you still don't what would really hurt you. Your ignorance, my pain and my triumph."
"That has nothing to do with it now. The inspector Chronee will come soon, so, I hope for Rucca's sake and for your own's sake that you remember what you must say to him. It must be convincent to tell that all was an..."
"An accident! I know, you don't have to remind me of what to say. I was there, you were not."
interupted Jonas
"... I'll be at the hall then"
muttered Dinemm, while some words seemed to be restrained in his mouth. After a couple of uncomfortable seconds he left the room, closing the heavy doors. Jonas found himself alone in the room thinking about all the events that took place that same morning; the old mansion of his father felt more stifling than ever. He gazed at his hands, and at the same time looked through the window at the fragile and cold figure of his sister Rucca, now without the eternal company of her twin brother, while she climbed into the car that would take her to an uncertain future in another country. He realized that they hadn't said a proper goodbye to each other, however a little outline of smile seems to show in her face.
"Odd, now that you are alone... you look so... happy, so free. Now I understand why you did that. Farewell little sister,"
He recalled his father's words,
"now I know what I was looking at through the window. It was not my reflection after all...and not my failure"An old, serene female voice called his name through the door, interrupting his thoughts and telling him that his father and the inspector Chronee required his immediate presence in the main hall. Jonas calmly put on his usual jacket and took a last look around the room. His eyes were drawn to the family portrait over the main desk, and he noted how similar his brother Lucca was to their father; with the same cold, rejecting look in their eyes
"What a coward am I" - whispered Jonas,
"I hated you so much brother, almost as much as Rucca did, though... she never told you that. She did what I couldn't, with her own hands, now its my turn to prove my worth here, I guess... that our father won't be disappointed after all in I am going to say. He is hoping I will burn for this. Well, I can grant his wish, but not for him. This will be my one last act of protection for you, Rucca. None of this was your fault anyway. Goodbye"
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Edited by Rose Lachenhild
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