whispering a sweet nothing

I'm not of the kind who seeks, but the kind who just awaits,
I'm just trying to hide my real self from everyone
Just looking for a balance, where I dont bother
Why so impossible?
Sorry... I just noticed that you have been closing your eyes towards meand still I don't know why?
If I tell you that I don't wanna be that what you want from me,
Would it be condidered a betrayal?
What's disguised inside that distant thoughts?
the real self od us both, our dark enigmas
our real secrets
Ohhh... the trust...
What a terrible double edge weapon.
If I tell you that I don't love you, girl
Would you forgive me?
Actually... would you believe me?
Suppostly I should be laughing, it`s not a big deal
and you recognized that you lied to me;
Ironic
Because I'm just falling apart
And as always I'm just crying
Alone.